I'm turning into a bitter person. Fuck, I'm turning into my old self. I need to be around happy people for me to be happy myself. Whenever I'm alone, I start thinking about life. My life, mostly. And then the world, and it's problems. And I try to solve them. And then I remember that I am just one person, I can do nothing by myself. At least, not in this day and age.

My relationship with the only girl I've ever loved has fallen apart, and I can't fix it. And she won't just let it fade away. I'm miserable... all of the time. I'm getting fucked over at work, by friends, by my car that falls apart every other week. I can never get a full nights sleep. I feel like a fucking zombie all day, every day. This isn't what life is supposed to feel like. Fuck this.

I need more noise music. Any recommendations?